I've come to realize that I'll look back on my initial working decade and know that this is a time of insecurity and uncertainty. When I first began blogging it felt like the Green revolution was on an upswing, jobs weren't that difficult to find and I could justify weekly yoga classes.
All that has changed and I finally understand the challenge of 'eco-fatigue'.
I would add 'yoga-fatigue' as well. Perhaps it's yoga-cynicism, or world cynicism.
It's just so easy to get caught up in being and focusing on the negative (especially when society is doused in a general feeling of malaise and anxiety).
In order to move forward, Beltane; a celebration of growth, life and Light, is the perfect time to let go of the Dark, to shed that dry husk and make like the trees- leafing forth!
What I'm letting go in Yoga:
- Coffee and Yoga. For a variety of truly disappointing and very negative (so I won't indulge them here) reasons, Coffee and Yoga was no longer making me happy. Every month I felt like a C&Y failure, it just wasn't living up to my expectations. So... I'm letting it go. This will leave a whole lot of emotional room for new practices that will make me happy.
What I'm letting go in 'Eco':
- As counterintuitive as this sounds, I'm letting go of worrying about our Planet. Don't get me wrong, I'm not letting go of 'caring' for our planet- there's a difference. This overall, pressing anxiety like the coming doom (which I actually do believe is unfortunately happening) isn't actually helping anything. Instead, it's creating an ever increasing sense of guilt (that I'm not doing enough), shame (over our terrible conservative government) and overwhelming sense of impending catastrophe- the kind where you should be stocking up and rocking hysterically in a corner (ok, maybe I'm exaggerating, but you green bloggers- you know what I mean!).
I need to let that go. I am doing fantastic Green work. I will continue to do fantastic Green work. Hopefully be spreading my experiences on this blog it will help others make some small and large changes. That will have to be enough for now.
As Beltane, like Samhain, is a night perfect for magical doings- let's see what the Tarot has to say about this:
Basically that although I originally was quite passionate about Coffee and Yoga, the fire has burnt away leaving a more cautious and reserved person (Empress reversed). The Page of Pentacles at the top implies that leaving C&Y will allow more room for new and exciting endeavours though- which is exactly as I'd like it. :)
Have you experienced eco or yoga fatigue?
What can you let go in your eco-yoga life to keep the Fires for Life and creativity burning brightly?
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